She said yes-

I love this so very, very much.  Saving to read every.single.day. 

She said yes-

To saying goodbye to everything and everyone who had broken her heart.

To forgiveness and not letting bitterness ruin her.

To not looking over her shoulder at memory lane, to not trying to bang down a door that's been purposefully shut, and to not wasting away her life waiting for someone to come back and love her.

To becoming wise, learning from her bad choices and mistakes.

To not letting men use her, abuse her, cheat on her, or treat her with less respect and care than what she deserves. 

To letting go of fears and embracing "I can's".

To being herself and loving her smile, her heart, her spirit and her body -to knowing she's loveable.

To trusting God in all areas of her life.

To having huge and crazy dreams and not letting anyone talk her out of them.

To loving herself, taking care of her body, her mind, and soul. 

To not letting the ashes, burnt up dreams, heartaches and disappointments destroy her or keep her from her God given destiny. 

To smiling, laughing, being silly, having fun, being creative and letting each moment count.

To letting him know she can live without him, that her worth never is based on his perception of who she is. 

To kissing that fool goodbye for the last time. 

To being lovely, sparkly, shiny and vibrant. 

To taking her tears and making them useful. She writes, she sings, she creates, and she wipes the tears of others, reminding them that God can heal their hearts too. 

To allowing herself to be available to romantic love again but with higher standards. She's a daughter of God, after all.

To walking out and living in her God given purpose and destiny. To be being a Queen for such a time as this. Yes, she can do it.

To wearing the pretty shoes and walking in authority, stomping and crushing the enemies lies beneath her feet!

To dancing and going to high places. 

To hanging out with winners, believers, overcomers and achievers; accepting healthy and inspiring people in her life, saying no to people who suck the joy and life out of what God has created to be beautiful and honor Him. 

To growing, glowing, giving, sharing, and loving.

To expecting the good and beautiful and expecting blessing and favor to be in her life.

Written by Jenny Williams  Copyright 2013 A Modern Day Ruth

Replaced

Wow to be replaced in less than a week. She was probably in the picture when we were together. Spending nights with her. I was a joke. Nothing. Someone to use and abuse.  Everyone was right, you were using me, I should have listened. How dare you!!!  You have no conscience. None.  All those things you were saying about me being a whore, that I'm cheating... They were about yourself. And allowing Rhett around her.  Wow.  Words can't explain this.  I'll never forgive you.  Never.  I didn't mean a damn thing to you.  I hope I never see you again. All I would be looking at is a fake. A liar. A cheater. Once your money is gone, she'll leave you.  She won't support you. Don't bother ever contacting me again. I won't listen. I won't answer. This was too much. Too much for me.  Time won't heal this.  

My Letter

As I sit here and have had time to reflect on things, some things are still unclear.  Maybe they always will be.  I'm not sure.  After spending your life with someone for two years, someone you want to marry "by the end of the year", the "love of your life" how can you just walk out. No goodbye.  Nothing. Calling them was wrong, but that's it never again wrong?  No.  There's more.  There has to be.  I supported you for two years, always there for you, especially when you were crying.  You can't say the same.  I was bawling.  I was begging.  You felt nothing.  You showed no concern for me at all.  No concern for my kids.  No concern for my well being.  You felt nothing.  How is that possible??? Maybe there is someone else.  Funny how you get some money and you want me out of your life.  What, were you worried I would get some of your money? Or that you may have to pay for something? Or maybe you were worried that you may have to take me on a date? Whatever the reason it's shitty.  No excuse.  After me being there for you that one night and how awful you behaved you couldn't be there for me??  Well I'm sorry.  I'm sorry for whatever I did or didn't do that made you not love me.  I'm sorry you found "someone else to sleep with" like you wanted.  I'm sorry I was never good enough.  I'm sorry all of my efforts were never good enough.  I would have done anything for you!!  And now for what?  To be thrown away?  That really isn't fair.   And I'm sorry for what is going to happen.  If I did nothing right for two years, I did protect you.  More than you will ever know.  You, unfortunately can't say the same.  My health isn't great, and not once did you show concern. But I protected you. Not because I had too but because I love you. You don't love me and I can't protect you anymore.  You won't ever hear from me again, just like you want. You want me gone so much you will get your wish.  I hope you change your ways someday.  I hope you find whatever you are looking for that will make you happy.  This is my goodbye.  This is my closure Maybe I'm not suppose to understand but I know I won't allow another man to put me through this kind of hell again.  Goodbye to you.