Lies

As I sit here I'm left with questions. Questions I can't answer.  To be lied to so much; its crushing.  I see he was trying to hurt me and he succeed at that.  Words can truly express what I'm feeling.  After knowing some one so long and now knowing that he lied so much to me. But why??  I told him from day one I can't deal with lies.  And I can't.  What did I do to deserve this?  Whatever it is, I'm sorry.  I really am. I wish I could take it back because I would.  There no apology. No explanation. Just lies and then gone.  No contact.  Nothing. I'm left to pick up the pieces; to make sense of this somehow.  I was nothing. Truly nothing to him. I'm sorry for everything that I ever did.