Tonight

Well tonight my whole family is having a birthday dinner for my oldest son. And I will be the only one there without someone.  No partner.  No spouse.  Nothing.  Because the one I was with chose someone else.  Because I didn't compare to her in his eyes.  Because he has been with others.  How humiliating for me.   I'm a joke.  I was a game.  I gave my all and it wasn't good enough.  I've been married and now this.  It's almost too much to bare.