Thinking.

As I sit here and think of things that I shouldn't be thinking.  Things I shouldn't remember.  Why does the mind do that?  Is it to torture? Is it to hurt you? Is it to remember bad things so you won't go running back to what has caused you all this hurt?  That I don't know.  Maybe there is a lesson and through the pain and suffering you are growing. Growing into the person you need to become. Or maybe it's because you are dumb and make stupid mistakes. In my case, I'm sure it's the last one. I am dumb. I make stupid mistakes. No one is perfect.  I'm far from it.  I've hurt people and been hurt. I'm made more than my share of mistakes. I'm not the person I should be.  Maybe someday I will be.  But not today.