Marriage.

I always wanted to be married.  The fairy tale. The happiness. The love.  Always having a best friend. At times I still want that.  But I know I was a bad wife, even though he was my best friend and he was the love of my life (or at least I thought so).   I wasn't enough. I couldn't make my husband happy.  I tried.  It just didn't happen like I planned. We were different. Different likes and wants.   Neither of us were wrong.  But it has ruined me and my views on marriage.  At times I think about getting married again.  But what's the point?  To get a divorce?  In today's time people don't stay together.  They don't work on their relationship, when things get hard they throw it away and move on.  They lie and walk out.  They hurt each other. They build up walls.  They run to other people, other relationships. Then you are left with a divorce and no best friend. You are alone and hurt.  I don't want that.  Not again.