Attitude

Isn't this true?  My attitude depends on you and the crap you have put me through. I'm a nice person, a push over, a people pleaser but everyone has their limit.  Once I reach mine, I'm done.  No more chances once I run out.  

Happy Birthday!!

Happy 10th Birthday to my sweet handsome caring loving smart boy!!  I love you so much!! 

 

Happy Valentine's Day!

Our day was good, I'm not a fan of valentines but I celebrate it for the kids. We hung out, I worked, we had a good dinner together, got treats.  Overall a good day.  

Change

I gave you an itch, you took a mile. 

I gave you trust, you broke it. 

I gave you happiness, you gave me sorrow.  

I gave you a family, you walked out on it. 

I gave you respect, you gave me lies. 

I gave you stability, you made me lose my balance.  

Now you want things back the way they were, I want change.  

I deserve change.  

2015

Well I am ready for 2015 already.  It's only been 5-6 weeks of 2014 and I've had enough.  In 5 weeks I have had to pay for plumbing issues twice, a garage door panel, and now today it looks like a new hot water heater.  I'm have temped to sell my house cause this is getting too expensive.  As a single mother working 50 hours a week, I can afford normal life things, not all these repairs.  Things better get better soon or it's going to be a long year. 

My kids

My kids are number 1!  They always have been and always will be.  Some people who don't want to be around my children, really should just stay away.  And selfish of some people making the kids be around someone who clearly doesn't want a relationship with them. The person who should know better is just getting used by this person but allowing my kids to around such an awful human. It's bs.  My kids deserve better. As a parent, you shouldn't put up with that crap.  But I guess they feel it's better than being lonely, so damage the kids but make sure your not lonely.   I get lonely too, we all do, but I don't allow bad people around my kids. Nor do I allow my kids to be around people that what no relationship with them.  I do what's best for them.  

Peace

In times of chaos, you are my peace.  You calm me down, even though you don't know it. Just a simple hi. A simple conversation.  A glance.  Just your present is calming.  You are my peace.

Funny

It is no secret that I have six kids, or the fact that I have been divorced... twice now.  I remember when my second marriage was falling apart.. maybe it was never really together but I was talking to someone and they informed me that dating would be next to impossible for me.  "Who wants to date someone with 6 kids?"  "Your not young anymore."  That's funny I tell you.  I get dating offers all the time.   Some guys who don't even have kids, some who do.  But I get PLENTY of offers.  So it seems funny someone would say something like that to me, maybe they wouldn't take someone with kids or someone my age.  That's cool.  Maybe I wouldn't date someone so dumb and heartless.  If you don't like kids, we don't need a relationship together anyway.   And who are we kidding, I don't care to date.  I don't need to be someone's booty call.  That's not me.  I'm better than that.

Me

After so many years, I am not anything to you.  Maybe just a mistake, like someone you use to know.  Funny how love can be turned on and off for some people.  I wish I could do that, but I can't.  You are still in my heart.  Maybe that is part of moving on, forgetting, or not caring.  Or maybe that wasn't love for you to begin with.  I am not the type of person to pretend to be anything that I am not. I tried that, and I failed!  I won't do it again.... lesson learned. I know plenty of people who pretend to be in love with someone this week, and oh someone else next week, or sleeping with this person to get this.. that's not me.  Never was.  Never will be. I am me.  The same me, a little stronger, a little less likely to put up with someone else's crap, but mainly the same me. I have a good heart, and I am a good person that has made mistakes.  I wish you the best with whatever you do, even though I am nothing to you.

Snow Day

 

Thunder checking it out

My world!

Foster dog Lily following Samantha

Building a snowman

Snowman!!!  A first for the kids!  :)