Heart

Seeing you hurt, makes me hurt.  Even though there is nothing left for me, I still feel it.  I know what I feel has to be real.   It isn't just in the day light that I feel;  I dream about you.   You were once my happiness, but I was never yours.  My happiness is gone and has been for a while, I am not even sure where to go or what to do.   For years, I have been walking around numb, pretending, trying my best.  At times I can't take it anymore.  The love that I feel will not go away.  It is just as strong, and now I see how real it is.  I know my mistakes, I live with them daily, I also live with this love that I feel.  Loving someone but not being enough for them is painful life. Trying to love someone else, with these feelings, doesn't work.  Trust me, I know.  I tried it.  Nothing compares. 

My days are full of children, both mine and other people's; which is the only happiness in my life now.  They are my only world.  And I will continue to live my life for them, especially my own children. They deserve the best, and will get nothing less from me.  My smile is because of them, my laugh is for them, I get through my days because of them.  And I will continue to love you and want the best for you, even though you feel nothing for me.