Zoo Day!

The kids were out of school for MLK Jr Day so we went to the zoo!!  We had a great time, even though it was so busy.  The weather was great too! 

 

Walk away

This is the new me. Walking away from family and fake people.  

True

Unfortunately this is true.   

Heart

Seeing you hurt, makes me hurt.  Even though there is nothing left for me, I still feel it.  I know what I feel has to be real.   It isn't just in the day light that I feel;  I dream about you.   You were once my happiness, but I was never yours.  My happiness is gone and has been for a while, I am not even sure where to go or what to do.   For years, I have been walking around numb, pretending, trying my best.  At times I can't take it anymore.  The love that I feel will not go away.  It is just as strong, and now I see how real it is.  I know my mistakes, I live with them daily, I also live with this love that I feel.  Loving someone but not being enough for them is painful life. Trying to love someone else, with these feelings, doesn't work.  Trust me, I know.  I tried it.  Nothing compares. 

My days are full of children, both mine and other people's; which is the only happiness in my life now.  They are my only world.  And I will continue to live my life for them, especially my own children. They deserve the best, and will get nothing less from me.  My smile is because of them, my laugh is for them, I get through my days because of them.  And I will continue to love you and want the best for you, even though you feel nothing for me. 

Happy New Year!!

Some photos from New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. All of us made it to midnight and celebrated the new year together!  It was a great night! Happy New Year to all! 

Today the kids and I spent most of the day in OKC shopping. I already started the birthdays for 2014!  :) 

Happy Birthday Thunder

Happy 1st Birthday to Thunder!!!!

Our cupcakes 

Ranger sharing thunders cake. 

Thunder and his cake 

Singing happy birthday. He was scared. 

The cake I made for him. Not the easiest to frost. 

Happy Birthday!! 

Another pillow

For my chair that needs a slip cover. 

Another set

Other room of closet doors. 

New projects

New closet doors for one bedroom.  :) now to do something in the other bedroom.  All painted by me. 

And my new thunder pillow.   Made by me.  I'm starting to enjoy sewing, I wish I had a machine.