4 Weeks Post Op

I'll make this short and sweet.  I am 4 weeks post op today.. hard to believe it has been 4 weeks.

Incisions- healing, light bruising on two.  One incision still looks bad but it was open.  It is closing. I will be scarred.  That upsets me. 

Bruising- Only light bruising.

Pain- Comes and goes.  If I over do it, it is bad.  I still have a lot of pains though.  Especially from my ovaries.  But they were messed with too.  And one of my incisions is still too sore to touch and the whole muscle hurts.  The doctor said it was normal, but I am not sure how much longer this is considered normal. I think he hurt the muscle. 

Mental- Bad.  I am not healing mentally.  I honestly wish this had never happened. 

My Journey {10 Days Post Op}

10 days have come and gone now.  I am a little shocked that it has been 10 days already.  But I am glad that I am very tough or I would have died in the last ten days.  This has been the worst recovery ever for me.  And this was my 5th surgery.  I am still lovely shades of bruised, mainly black.  My incisions still hurt, especially when touched.  And laying down or getting up still hurts a lot.  Who knew how much you used your stomach muscles untill your stomach was jacked up.  But I am healing, at least physically.  Mentally, it is still rocky.  I am not sure I will heal mentally though.  We shall see.  I still have like ten more days till I see my doctor, and seeing my body makes me want to hurt him also.  The swelling has been crazy with this recovery.  In the morning, I look like I am 3 months pregnant, and by the end of the day I look 5 months pregnant, all from swelling.  It's crazy!  I guess that is normal?  I truly have no idea.  And I have a crappy nurse that doesn't tell me much of anything, so I am waiting to see.  And I am off of Motrin now too.  I was usppose to stay on pain pills for 1-2 months, that lasted 2 days.  And Motrin for about the same amount of time.  I guess having a high pain tolerance pays off at times.  But it probably would of been an easier recovery if I had taken the pain pills like I should of and rested more.  But life goes on and here's to ten more days of recovery..



Well a correction. I had glue bandages over the incisions. The glue has been coming off but now they are completely gone. And in two of my incisions I have a stitch hanging out of my body and the incisions are more open where the stitch is. I guess I ripped them or pulled it. I'm going to have a scar for sure. Now I'm upset again. I'm not sure what to do.

My Journey (7 Days Post Op)

7 days, 1 week out of surgery... so when does the healing start happening?  I am more bruised today than two days ago.  My moods and emotions are everywhere.  I can't control them, and at times I can't even stand me.  I am so sad and heartbroken.  I am still in a lot of pain, even though I am not on my pain pills and haven't been for 5 days.  Yesterday I made my belly button bleed from sneezing.. a simple sneeze.  I am not sure if I tore a stitch or what.  With my last surgery I tore a stitch or two post op in my belly button, that was because I was doing too much.  But I have been too much this time too.  Resting isn't happening too much at all.  So who knows.  I just want to feel normal.  Or at least better.